Fear VS FAITH
Updated: Aug 21, 2020
Both faith and fear may sail into your harbor, but only allow faith to drop anchor.
So we are expecting baby #3 any day now! We are scheduled to meet him on Sunday, August 23 but we all know that babies have a mind of their own! In six days or less DeJuan Legend Lasenby will arrive! I am not going to lie, ya girl has been scared. This will be my 3rd c-section. Anxiety has been getting the best of me. The disparities in health care and death rate of black women during childbirth is already scary. I remember having my c-section 2 years ago and my nurses refused to send me home with a Rx for “real” pain medication. They told me to purchase over the counter Tylenol or Motrin. Ma’am, you just cut a baby out of me and you’re telling me to take a pill that people take for a headache?!?!? Also, being pregnant is challenging enough but being pregnant during a pandemic has been unsettling, nerve-racking and uncertain. This is our first son. My husband has not been able to attend an appointment or ultrasound. He has sat in the car and had to attend the appointments via FaceTime.
Throughout, my pregnancy my husband tried to make the best of my “quarantine cravings”. He’s had ice cream delivered to the house, curbside pickup for my favorite restaurant, gotten me flowers and sure I didn’t go crazy not being able to spend time with my family. I hadn’t seen my parents in months. Any woman pregnant during this time, especially those going through it alone, my heart goes out to you. I am air hugging you as I type!
With so much going on in the world: civil unrest, racism, murders, Covid-19 and the massive numbers of deaths associated with it, in addition to the recent passing of my father in law, I am reminded of God’s grace, mercy and promises. We prayed specifically for a son and He granted us the desires of our hearts. I still have morning sickness, I’ve had mastitis for the first time and a few other things going on but our son is healthy. God kept us from Covid, he kept our daughters healthy. We couldn’t gather for a traditional baby shower but we have everything we need and more for DJ (thanks to our family and friends)! On a lighter note, my skin stayed clear, my nostrils didn’t double in size this time around and I still have my booty, Lol. Good looking out God!
I say it jokingly but I’m serious. God is so good and has blessed us during these times. I have to remember that everything is in His hands. I will be fine, surgery will be successful and baby will be healthy. Send a prayer and positive vibes for us and we will do the same for you. I declare that I will not be fearful, I choose the anchor of FAITH. My faith has brought me through so much, why would it fail me now?
Which anchor do you choose today?